Release

07 Jul Release

Sometimes it’s really difficult to keep everything to yourself all the time. It builds up and builds up until you need to release it. I’m fairly open about what I feel… at least I thought I was. I started to notice recently that I don’t really talk to anyone about things. Yeah, I talk to my husband about what’s going on in my mind but I feel like there isn’t anyone else.

I do have a few friends that I speak with daily through group messages but even then I don’t get much of a response when it comes to anything I feel strongly about or upset over. I don’t really expect them to know what to say either. That’s not fair to them and I wish more people would understand that. People, in general, are not trained or experienced to understand or know what to say to someone in every situation. People close to you are not your therapists and that took me a long time to understand myself.

Having those, “You can talk to me about anything.” people is great to have but they really don’t know what to say when you talk to them about anything. It can be crushing sometimes because it makes me feel like I’m not being understood or that I’m the only person going through this. There are also some things I don’t want to connect with other people on. There are things that I go through that I still don’t know how to comfort other people about.

Sometimes when people release their feelings to me or their problems, I get very overwhelmed. I’m a very empathetic person and take on the feelings of other people really easy. This is very draining and sometimes puts me into a dark place when I wasn’t even there in the first place. Practicing consent with this kind of thing is also very important. Ask the person if they’re able to talk to you and if they’re in a good mental state to take on the things you’re about to tell them.

We are all just trying to survive and the older I get the more I find counseling to be a better option. Affordable? No. But talking to someone outside of your circle is probably going to be the better option if you feel yourself in this same position. I’ll eventually let you know if that opinion stands or not depending if I ever get a chance to do the same.